my life is damn sian..

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MrSianGuyLifeIsDamnDamnSIAN

SIAN

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

i still cant let it go...

today wasnt a rlly pleasant day for me. i thought, making new friends, talking to more ppl would make myself feel better. but then, it was only momentarily. today during the lectures and tutorials, the past starts to appear in my mind again. today, i rmbed how she would be there to give me the care and concern when i m in such a pain, from my heartburn(worsened condition of gastric). i rmbed how she would be there to give me that huge radiant smile of hers, during those times, it would rlly made my day. i rmbed how she would want to hold my hands when we were together and we would not want to let go unnecessarily. i rmbed how she would be give me that heart warming kiss when i was down. regardless how i want to not think about her, she still appears in my mind. no matter how determined i am, somehow, these memories are able overcome this determination. the heartburn has been causing unbearable pains. i have difficulty eating and drinking, and sometimes even feel the pain when i m breathing. it seemed like there is nothing besides to lighten this pain. the medicine is not even working well. i miss her. but i know i have lost her. i will still be here, waiting for you to make your decision.

LEEZHIHANEUGENE

TWENTY.06/02/92
nanhuahigh.409'08
andersonJC.28/09
GYM-SIAO
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S-I-A-N

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I LOVE YOU
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

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