my life is damn sian..

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MrSianGuyLifeIsDamnDamnSIAN

SIAN

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

no one is there for me anymore...

i didnt went to school. the pain in my chest was unbearable this morning when i woke up. even sitting down or just doing nothing, i could feel that sharp pain in my chest. i was kinda worried, i alrdy missed school on monday, then if i miss again today, i think i m going to lag quite far behind. ... i still remember when i was in nanhua, when i missed school, she would message me when she cant see me in school in the morning at the school parade square. she would be asking what happened to me, am i alright, i must take care of myself and stuff. she would always be the first person to message me and ask how i was doing. her messages would really make me feel better, her caring message would really make my day. she would be scolding me, but then, i would usually smile at her scolding, because i know she cares for me. but then, its all in the past. now, there wouldnt be anyone messaging all these messages anymore. there wouldnt be anyone scolding me. i think she doesnt even know that i am having gastric problems now. i went to the doctor just now, and the doctor said said the muscles around my chest area together with the bones, might be too tight, due to stress from school or some other stuff. nowadays, there is actually nothing much that can keep me out of stress. i remember last time when i was out with her, spending time with her, even studying, i can feel that i am not that stressed anymore. now, i cant find nothing else to destress myself, except for basketball. now with my condition, i can do nothing but stay at home. i still have much work to do. in my life, in this world, without her, without you, i aint the same anymore. i miss her, i miss you.

LEEZHIHANEUGENE

TWENTY.06/02/92
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GYM-SIAO
SUPER-mugger
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S-I-A-N

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I LOVE YOU
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.

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