my life is damn sian..

was back at nanhua today. the same old place where i used to hang out. i have so much memories there. was playing basketball with my teammates, some 402'08 guys and my juniors. had a hell of a time. its been a long time since i played at nanhua's court, especially now there is a new court. however, it brought back some other memories. as i entered the school gates of nanhua and walk towards the car porch, i still remember seeing her alighting from her dad's car, usually quite late and several times i would be there waiting for her. i would wave to her dad in the car. she would be carrying her adidas bag with her water bottle and some of her books in her hand. we would walk up to our classrooms together, hoping that we would not be spotted by our form teachers. her classroom was beside mine then. as i walked into the canteen, i remembered how i would rush down on a daily basis during lunch time or recess to buy something for her to eat because we would be studying in the classroom. although we werent supposed to eat in class, but we still did. i would usually buy the "fan choi" for her. or else i would have brought bread i bought from breadtalk during the weekend to her classroom and we would share. from this point, i still remembered she taught me how to play bingo in her class, on her class whiteboard. i didnt know how to play then. in the canteen, during sec 3, me and her, we would usually spend our recess with rachel, shao an, waifoon, eating together. we would usually order laksa, and for me and shao an, laksa ko song. take turns to buy drinks, take turn to return the bowls. at the basketball court, i had training back then on mondays and wednesdays. on wednesday, she had dance practices too. and everytime, she would stare down from the hall corridor, hoping we would notice each other. without fail, we did. she would give me a smile so radiant that it made my day, and i was able to push myself to practice harder. i still remember last year there was the interclass basketball competiton. i knew she would be watching me play even during her dance practices, so i knew i had to put in my best. it was my motivation, even though my team was the underdog. in the canteen, i remember last year during the O levels period, we would be studying together with phay, cheryl, zhipeng, colin, jieming and many other people during the night studies. in this canteen, it was the place we first knew each other through jane. it has been quite a long time already, things are different now. even till now, i would've have to say i still hope for the day you would be willing to give me another chance. i might not be the perfect guy you are hoping for, you would say i can find someone better. but you're something i can never knew i would have, it was more than a dream come true for me. it is already the 15th june, another seven days. it was supposed to be a special day for us. even though i said i would give up and try to give it, however, i figure, the feeling it still there.