my life is damn sian..

dreams. its been quite some time i really dreamt about something. just a couple of days back, i had a dream. firstly, does anyone believe in dejavu? but it did happen to me. jus some random dream that really happened one day, that was quite a long time ago. yeah, so i had a dream a few days back. in this dream, somehow, we just met in school, together with many ex nanhuarians, and she came to me in the canteen, with a card in her hand. she passed it to me and walked away. slowly i opened the card and started reading what she wrote. she wrote to me, she still had feeings for me and is willing to start all over again, as she felt that i had changed. i was jumping for joy and i saw her giving me a smile as she turned around. yeah, then i woke up. but then, come to think of it, its still a dream. i told my friend about this, and my friend told me i should tell her, claiming that perhaps it might really turn out to be something good. but then, i guess if i really told her about this, she would just feel that i am being irritating again or i am just not able to let it go. best to keep it to myself i guess. why did this dream even occur? i would rather not have this dream. woke up in the morning lying on my bed, thinking about it, as it bring backs memories. but then, after all, it is just a dream. i am trying to move on, and i am feeling much better these days. but somehow, i really hope this dream might just come true. heard from another friend, telling me that to make someone come back to you, i've to just to be happier, live better, not bother about her too much, treating her just as a normal friend, and perhaps one day she might just come back to me. he added that it should take around 8 months or so. whether it happens to me or not, i really dont know. my life now is just studying, basketball, perhaps meeting up with some friends, movies. basketball is all that i look forward to, and sleeping as well. pretty no life huh? all i long for is to not think about any work and just play basketball. thats all. tears dont come anymore. just sleepless nights. but then, i am still able to have ample rest after spinning around on my bed. like i said, i am moving on. to lead my life full of basketball and studies. this dream of mine, may or may not come true. i cant do anything to decide my fate this time. lets hope life will turn out to be better in the future.