my life is damn sian..

in a blink of an eye, two weeks since OP ended and holidays have just officially started for TWO days. piles of holiday homework are already on my desk and i have only finished two maths paper, which is 1/15 of the total of homework i have. just dont feel like touching it. makes it feel like i am not having my holidays. life has been... bored as usual. besides training, there is nothing much i can do. my phone doesnt ring often, text messages dont come often. when i am at home, cant really find anyone to talk to. it has been like this for quite sometime and i am getting used to it. recently did started texting someone, but then she is away from singapore this week and so i dont have anyone to talk to for the time being. friends say i can try to text them, but then sometimes i do worry i would irritate them with my boring messages. sometimes just have no idea what to chat with them about. dare not take the risk to irritate them. but then i am going to work my guts out for the next 4 days at the SITEX, I.T. fair at expo. going to have to wake up very early for these 4 mornings to go to work and it ends at 9 plus. but then it keeps me occupied for the time being. sometimes i really do wish i can be as busy everyday, to keep my mind occupied and not think of other stuff. recently, there's been some problems with my close friend's love life. made me recall all the shit that i've been through for the start of the year. friends ask me, "have you gotten over it?" yes, i answered. but then they would ask again, "are you sure?" hmmm, so have i gotten over it? everytime i answered yes, it was a confident answer. but then, come to think of it, was it? sad to say recently i had this dream, or was it a nightmare, that has something to do with my past love life. it just this sunday. i woke up immediately from it, feeling frustrated. thinking about it, i guess one can never get over a past relationship COMPLETELY, and once again i emphasize, COMPLETELY, unless he or she finds someone new. sucks right? this awful fact. i should be sleeping already at this hour, to get enough rest for tomorrow. but then, somehow i just couldnt get myself to stop typing. feels like i have quite a lot to say. after this four days, its going to be another few weeks of boring life. somehow, really hope i can find someone. to me i just feel that its just nice to have someone with you. but then, i have to face the fact, i dont have one. and wonder when i would get one. everyone say this kinda stuff cannot rush, when it comes, i will know. wonder when it will be. perhaps in a few days? a few weeks? a few months? or even worse, a few years?