my life is damn sian..

it seems like it has been a long time since the last time i sat down in front of my laptop and ponder about life. yes i know, everyone is going to say, "got gf le still sian?!?!" no matter what, i still like the name MrSianGuy :D having her around has really been better. furthermore she stays near me, so we can always go home together. everything at the beginning seems so nice and sweet. it is nice and sweet, that i cant deny. however, i am still worried if this will last, or will it turn out to be wake-up call for me. i trust her, and i do trust my feelings, however, i still cant help but worry if something similar to the past will happen again. i really hate that feeling. i bet everyone does. just yesterday, we marked the second month we have been together. i feel that time has been passing very quickly recently, but then our two months seemed like it has been half a year already. just a weird feeling. but then i am glad nothing has gone wrong, YET. lets hope this stays the same in the future. moving on, the AJC basketball team has just finished their 'A' Division Basketball Competition, losing in the hands of HCI once again. without weixian playing, we were at a total disadvantage in size. its a pity he couldnt play. but then everyone put in their best effort and the team was able to make to the finals and achieve outstanding result of national second. looking at their glorious and spectacular achievement, i cant help but feel envious and jealous, and sometimes, i can taste the sourness as well. really hope i can be there in the finals with them, sitting on the bench, wearing the team jersey and playing for the team. but then i know i lack the ability. haiz, sometimes really feel kinda sad. thought in AJC i could achieve something from basketball. however basketball in AJC is similar to that of mine in nanhua, not being able to achieve anything. however, from both basketball, i have gained new lessons and made friends that share the difficult times together training and going through drills. they are the friends, or i should say, brothers that i will never forget. now, we have to slowly put everything else aside, and start preparing for the most important and difficult task this year, and that is the 'A' levels at november. seemed very long time away right? but actually i have alot of things to study. so much that i am feeling the stress already. school is going to suck big time in the next few months. but there is much to look forward to after the 'A' levels. due to this, everyone is busy in school and it just seemed like we are drifting apart. we do not the luxury of free time to meet up and chit chat. everyone is busy with school. its kind of sad, friends like marcus, yiyan, hannqian, jane, mingqian, and everyone else in NANHUA and 409'08, i dont get to meet them much nowadays. hope we can do some catching up soon.