my life is damn sian..

I'm going to Bali in 2 wks time!!! yeah!!! finally out of this country for some quality relaxation. after hearing so many friends planning or actually went overseas already, i finally get my chance. and I'm going with my B :) talking bout her, congrats she gotten into SMU biz. yeah, she got in, i didn't. as happy as i am for her, I'm still kinda pissed and frustrated that i didn't even get a call from smu. not even one for any of other courses. like totally condemned. and i thought NTU is the only that looked down on my english language through my GP grades. therefore i sincerely thank NUS and their office of admissions and the Faculty of Arts and Social Science for giving me a chance to study there. i m very grateful and i can't wait to join NUS. as much as i wanna study biz, non of the biz schools are giving me chance for an interview at all. arrgghhh. damn assholes. i feel that I'm quite selfish too, trying to persuade B to join me in FASS when she has a chance in biz school. obviously, the whole world knows she will definitely choose SMU biz over FASS anytime. sometimes i feel that giving me false hope, saying that I'm still considering FASS, is worse than not giving me any hope of her joining me in FASS. this sucks, i hate to experience such separation. its not that i have no faith in her, i jus experienced a broken r/s due to separation in different schools. don't want it to happen again. but if it really happens, guess i can't do anything to prevent it either since i won't be with her in SMU most of the time. yeah see!!! i think I'm jus too selfish. uni studies is about her future, shouldn't let our r/s affect her future. you never know, we might not even last. not that i don't want it to last, but you never know, i am the best guy out there. bet there are millions of better guys in SMU. wad am i talking bout... nvm. all the best to her in SMU and all e best to me in FASS then. ohh and now that so many ppl keep telling me economics is damn difficult in FASS, I'm seriously considering other courses, but i look at so many of them, i totally have no interest in. psychology, social work, geography and all the language studies is definitely out, I think political science, sociology and southeast asian studies are all quite interesting, but not smth i want to major in. there is only econs left... arrghhh another difficult decision. life is boring now, nothing to do. haiz. gym is practically my life now. haha. anybody got any useful gym workouts pls introduce to on my Facebook account!!! :)