my life is damn sian..

It's the first day of school for B. She says the prof is teaching very fast, about 75 pages jus today. Hope she is able to manage. Jus the first day, or wks before, she has been telling me how busy she's gna be. With projects, tests and assignments. I was told I have to be more undeerstanding. She can't meet me tat often anymore. No more random meet ups on weekdays. Can't always ask her out on wkends anymore. Things are gna get difficult as everyone says. I feel i have mentally prepared myself for this. I gotta find other interests instead of jus hanging out with her. I have my fixed gym and run sessions. I need to find other ppl to hang out with. Main idea is shifting my focus away from her I guess. And jus mayb meet here for 1 dinner or meal a wk, jus an hour or two. I should be contented. I hope I will be. Seemed like I was wrong. She needs her time to be flexible, so in order to suit hers, I have to make mine flexible too right? I understand tat she is gonna be busy, cos her sch work is very project based, so there will constantly be work to do. She might have to meet her proj grp members often, and leave sometime for lesson prep reading and test revisions. I can't plan a date ahead with her anymore i guess. It's time to face the music, I ain't priority anymore. Studies come first definitely, and I think tats good. Jus tat we can only meet last minute. I jus told her to gimme about 2-3 hrs on a Saturday night. A night which leads to a Sunday, and assignments doesn't seem like they need to be submitted on a Sunday. Jus to watch a concert as a form of rest? Jus a few hours. Starts at 8pm. I understand she has to study in e day so I don't expect anything from her in e day. But jus asking for a few hours at night has led her thinking I'm inconsiderate. Only think of what I want. I wasnt. She's upset with me cos I'm supposedly nt understanding enough. Why does this whole thing seemed like history about to repeat itself. In e past, it all started when e female party enters a new environment, wanting her to work hard but she has lots of other commitments. Difficult to ask her out, ended up arguing cos I wasn't understanding. She went on to like somebody else in e similar environment to hers. This time, I tried to be more understanding, knowing she is gna be busy, asked her out 3 wks from nw, she is upset bout my stand. Maybe ppl like them need to find someone in the same situation, same environment as them. Even attending lessons Can be done Tgt. Able to help each other out with assignments. Will she end up leaving me for another guy? Is history gna repeat itself again? I lose out again.